October 21, 2015: Week Nine
To those of you in a rut, questioning your path, wondering how you got to this point–keep going.
As much as I wish being happy 24/7 is a realistic possibility in this life, I know that it isn’t. There are days when I have no idea what I’m doing or why I’m doing it. There are days when I sincerely wish I had it all figured out. There are days that I want to skip the process and end up at the final product but without the pain, frustration, and heartache. There are days where I can’t remember why I love this art form. There are days where I am falling to rock bottom so quickly that I can’t do anything but watch the scenery as I tumble.
There are days where I can’t be the artist I know that I am capable of being. I miss the mark. I take the loss.
It’s important to remember that those feelings are not forever. It is also important to remember that those feelings matter. Noticing that clouds make you appreciate the sun, yes, but what about the amazing rain dance that came out of your longing for warmth? Being open and vulnerable is hard, a lot of people don’t understand that. Vulnerability is a part of the game as an artist and as much as it can rip you apart, it can also heal you too.
I’m struggling with keeping it together; mentally, physically, and emotionally. I’m not saying that I’m perfect. I’m just saying that it is just as important to be invested in the ups are you are in the downs. The growth that comes from this is astounding and I am a testament to that fact.
So to all my artists out there, hell, everyone out there struggling to think straight, create, and keep it pushing–I have faith in you. We gon’ be alright.